Ok, so you’re not greedy and indulgent you’ve got an addicted brain pathway because you ate addictively in your past because your brain figured out it relaxed, calmed and numbed you. PLUS we live in a food worshiping, food addicted culture. Forgive yourself. Allow yourself to experience your compulsion to overeat and make peace with it.
It actually is the act of non-reinforcement that breaks the neural pathways of addiction. The current desire to, compulsion to overeat actually means you have not been overeating lately! Celebrate that!! Don’t feel guilty about the desire, feel it, don’t feed it and breathe through it struggle through, remain unsatisfied. Breathe, then it will pass and you will begin to put your addiction to rest. Lay it to rest.
It gets a tiny it gets a tiny bit easier every single time and you get stronger every time, also your reward is self-esteem and a growing happiness.
Love yourself. Stop punishing yourself by doing things you know will you will regret later on. The way you eat has incredible impact on your self-esteem. Start building your self-esteem. Make good food choices very often and your self-esteem will build.
I’ve been trying to describe how I feel right before I make a decision to binge or eat way too much… It feels sort of like an emptiness even though I know I’m not hungry it’s like a quiet under the surface angst… an uneasiness, sort of a niggle of anxiety.. feeling unsettled.. it starts this way but then it can roll on into a desperation. Sort of like I am gasping for air but I’m gasping for food…but I never let get it passed mild angst anymore.. then after I pig out I feel free and calmed and unrestrained and released…
I want to work on noticing when I get that angst, that restless feeling and knowing right there, right then is an opportunity! You are right then in the middle of your addicted desire. It’s a good time to work on skills that help me deal. I know that if I pig out in order to get rid of that discomfort I am also reinforcing that addicted brain pathway.. That is not the answer .. NOT GIVING IN TO THE DISCOMFORT.. is the answer.. just feeling it, just let it go through it’s stages and feel it.